Word of the Day: emotion
1. A mental state that arises spontaneously rather than through conscious effort and is often accompanied by physiological changes; a feeling
2. A state of mental agitation or disturbance: spoke unsteadily in a voice that betrayed his emotion.
3. The part of the consciousness that involves feeling; sensibility
(dictionary.com)

Challenge: Describe an emotion, physically.

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My hands are shaking. I need food but I don't think I'm hungry. I need sleep but I never want to when I'm in bed. I think I'm ^three steps _away from a nervous breakdown. My eyes are on the road ahead, but my heart and mind are on the rearview mirror. My unsteady hands are a picture of my shaky world. Opaque glass windows are crumbling on me, jagged shards indent my skin . . .

STOP

_{Start in the
............real world,
and slowly
.....drift
..........away
into the deadly
........cage
...of imagination.}

Start Again.

My mind is whirling. Every time it slows something else comes to churn it back up. Three steps are edging _{into two}. ^{(I think something is about to snap.)}

Make my hands stop shaking
...make my world stop spinning
......let me sleep into eternity
.........and dream my mind away




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Word of the Day: awaken
1: cause to become awake or conscious
2: stop sleeping
3: make aware
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*EDIT* 5.09.05**
So a few people wanted to know more about the language. Instead of putting up a ton of journals, though, I'll just put it all here. ^_^

First off, like many languages, all the vowels are said the same way (like in Spanish and Japanese). Unlike many languages, it doesn't really have a "silent" letter (e in english, u in Japanese), though I is sometimes blended with a connecting vowel. If you have a word like wei (thought), it isn't pronounced "we-i", but like "whey", as one sound.
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Secondly, in the time of their people, there was a caste system.
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Aa - the Gods, the Divine, the Deities, etc.
Ao (base form) - god, royalty (king, queen), leader/ "Master"
Nako - upper class, rich / ?? (need to think of a translation)
Gento - middle class / "commoner"
Tinso - lower class, poor / "peasant"
Beo - untouchable / "slave", "outcast"
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These are used like -san and -chan in Japanese. Except like in English, they go before the name, and have gender specifics. As with any word that describes someone, or something they're doing (verbs), the endings change. o-endings are the base form. a-endings are plural. (viso- to protect; visa,- we protect, protect us) For a female, i-endings are used, and for a male, e-endings. So if you were to say Queen Elizabeth, it would be Ai'Elizabeth. (a ' represents a separation of vowels, a pause.) If you were to say, Master Daniel (making up names here) it would be Ae'Daniel. If the person is important enough, like a god or "divine master", you would leave it as a base form; Ao'Daniel. If you were to speak to someone, you must first know their class (usually denoted by a tattoo on their cheek or neck) and would refer to them as "Tinsi'Michelle" or "Gente'Fred". The only Bea (untouchables) are either slaves, or "outcasts", those banned from the village for commiting a crime (like thievery). Usually, if two people are friends, they will drop the formalities and use only names, but if one of another class speaks to a Beo, the prefix is always used (even when alone).
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Words you Need to Know:
yes - gesu
no - rosu
~Question words (all begin with w; wakane= question)~
wate- what
wane- when
wahe- who
ware- where
wade- how
~Colours (all begin with a k; kelno= colour)~
kisu- black
kusui- white
ka'en- red
kemi- blue
kusa-purple
kora- orange
keyo-yellow
kube- green
~"Holy" words (words refering to or having to do with Antosui and Arraisu*, or what we call Yin and yang)~
isu- night / moon / dark
sui- day / sun / light
arra- lady / mistress
anto- lord / master
isusui- unity
aisu'asui- chaos
Aa- "Divine"
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*See below

**5.04.05**
Yeah soo I couldn't sleep last night. And I came up with this really cool idea for two characters, and a picture of them. Of course I can't draw stuff like that worth crap, so I'll post the idea for the picture here, and see if anyone else wants to draw it. And give an extremely short history.

I also started making up a language to go with all this. O.o
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The idea is that there are two people, sealed away together. They have great power, which is part of the reason they were sealed away. When they were "alive" (so to speak), their people saw them as practically gods, because they had powers that those people had never dreamt of. It was a forgotten people, a forgotten language that would have died with them, were it not for the ritual "spell" to bring these two back to life.
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(this is the idea for the picture I wanted to draw: )
there is a young man and a young woman, back to back. The woman lays on the right, her head down. She has dark black hair to her waist, extremely pale skin, and (once she opens them) white irises. Her left arm (the one she's laying on) is across her stomach, her hand resting lightly on her side, and her right arm is laying in front of her, her palm towards her face, fingers relaxed. She wears a black shirt with big, wide sleeves, and tight black pants. The pants have silvery designs throughout. One side of her sleeves reaches to her fingertips, curving down to almost touch the floor when she stands with arms down. (think similar to Li and Mei-Lin's outfits from CardCaptors. x.x) On the back of her shirt is a large yin-yang. The yin is the same colour as the shirt, blending in, so all you can make out is the white side and the white circle. The collar of the shirt is like a halter top, low-cut in front (but not showing anything) and high against her neck in back. Her shoulders are bared, and the lining of the "holes" at her shoulders meet the collar on either side. The hems of the shirt (the collar, sleeves, bottom and shoulders) is lined with 1 inch strips of silver. The pants are the same. Her left leg is mostly straight, bent slightly at the knee, her other leg is bent almost completely, crossed over it.
The boy has white hair that reaches to his chin in front, and curves up to about ear-length in back. His skin is tanned, and his eyes (though closed) are completely black. His head is tilted up, his legs are pulled up slightly and bent at the knees (almost as if sitting in a chair). His right hand is at about thigh level, curved inward with his palm out. His left arm is in front of his face, his hand above his head facing out. He wears all white: his shirt is similar to hers, except that the collar is large, reaching to the edge of his shoulders. His sleeves reach his fingertips, like hers, and flare out. They don't reach down to the ground. His pants are poofy (Like Li's) and his pants and shirt have the same silvery-grey lining as the girl's. He, too, has a yin-yang on the back, and on his the yang is unintelligible against the white.
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Her name is Arraisu, meaning "Lady of the Moon" or "Mistress of the Night". His name is Antosui; "Lord of the Sun" or "Master of the Day".
The chant to bring them back is this:

Mannei, Arra ka Isu
beya nia faulen.
Mannei, Anto ka Sui
visa ka dejen.
Tenya Aa kan wei resta.
Hydre lani tokesta.
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the literal translation:
Awaken, our Lady of (the) Night/Moon.
Soothe us in our distress/worry.
Awaken, our Lord of (the) Day/Sun.
Protect us from our fears.
We call upon the Deities (you) for thoughts and prayers.
Help us find our way.
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And rewritten in English years after they were sealed away:
Awaken, Lady of the Night,
hear our prayers and soothe our plight.
Awaken, Master of the Day,
keep our doubts and fears at bay.
We send our thoughts and prayers to you,
help us find the right way through.
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I think that the story starts out with some cultist-type of men finding the shrine where the Aa are sealed away. They gather in a circle around the large circle embedded in the stone floor where the two rest. They start to read the chant, but instead of the whole thing, they only read the first two and the last two lines. The result of this is that Arraisu awakens, but not Antosui, which throws the world into chaos more and more until our protagonist (no idea about him/her yet) finds Antosui and reads the second and last two lines to awaken him.
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Yes. O.o I was extremely bored. And extremely tired. But . . . . .

I think I'm on to something.

So . . . if anyone's bothered to read this far . . . (wouldn't blame you if you didn't ) the question is;
1. should I turn this into an actual story, or just scrap the whole idea?
2. should I post more about the language? Anyone interested in learning about it? Or more about the Aa?

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Word of the Day: cryptic
1. Having hidden meaning; mystifying.
2. Secret or occult.
3. Using code or cipher.
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Mood: wish I knew
Listening to: Runaway - Linkin Park
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Watching: FF7 Advent Children (I wish . . . T.T)

I've been reading CardCaptor Sakura lately, having borrowed it from Kagome, and (although I haven't started it yet) she also let me borrow the Fruits Basket dvd's . . . so I'm gonna be in a cute, bubbly mood for a while. x.x Just giving forewarning. **

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My skin is melt_ing, a merge of acid flowers and chamomile dreams. River runs red with a mission past due. What makes a wish gain wings and ^{fly-- just to fall} back _{down-- to decay again?} Nonsensical playtime for a mind long lost, silver eyes watching my life float away. See how far this string will s-t-r-e-t-c-h , fall into a stinging flesh-- .wounded. _ .flailing. for the (catch).
^{I'm watching you,} _{you're watching me,} but still she cannot hold the key. Words follow through, a beauty unmasked . . .

time to ^jump and hope it lasts.

Neon candied pearls s t r e a m to paper crystals fashioned from coal.

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My mind has turned to _mush as the virus extends to my fingertips. Nails on a chalkboard leak through the madness to run a s h r e d d e r on my heart. Drive a needle through me, hammer it into your cheek. Eyes on you |-sideshow freaks-| worth a nickel just to hear you screech. Bind~yourself ~in~a~rope~of~thorns||and/cry/ at/every/cut.

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Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
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XD Well I missed the actual 4000, but YES!!! Haha, it's like an early birthday present. ^_^ I'll have to do something to celebrate later. Anyway, THANKS SO MUCH YOU GUYS!!!!!!! I know pageviews shouldn't really matter, but it still kinda means a lot to me, so thanks!!!
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T.T I hate macs . . .

1) Name: duo-chan
2) Birthday: April 11 1987
3) Zodiac Sign: Aries
4) Sex: female
5) What Time Is It? 10:02am

Last Person Who......
8) Saw You Cry - my mom
11) You Shared A Drink With - Panda at Cobra
12) Went to the movies with - Kagome, Jin, Panda, Thumper
13) You Went To The Mall With - Kagome & Kurushi
14) Yelled At You - my dad
15) Sent you an email - haven't checked in like a week.
16) Said They Were Gonna Kill You - Probably Jenny. ^^

When was the last time you............
17) Taken A Picture Of Yourself With A Milk Mustache - O.o . . . . . . . *goes to look for camera*
18) Said "I Love You" And Not Mean It - I always mean it if I say it.
19) Gotten Into A Fight With Your Dog/Cat? the last time I had a cat. T.T In my house in woodlawn.
20) Been To New York? Nope
21) Been To Florida? I live here...
22) Japan? one day . . . But my daddy lived there as a kid.
23) Hawaii? Nope, but again, my dad did.
24) Mexico? closest I've been is Texas.
25) China? Nope
26) Canada? nope but I know people who live there. ^_^
27) Stalked Someone? oh, a couple of times.
28) Danced Naked? hmmm . . .>.>
30) Had A Mud Bath? no thanks.
31) Wished You Were The Opposite Sex? ---> . <---
32) Had An Imaginary Friend? still do . . . >.>
33) What Time Is It Now? 10:06 am

Do you Prefer......
34) Apples Or Bananas? that question is rigged. . . >.>
35) Red Or Blue? I like both but red.
36) Backstreet Boys Or N Sync? They both sold out. T.T
37) Wal Mart Or Target? WalMart, but Target's cool too.
38) Spring Or Fall? I'm a spring baby. ^_^
39) Santa Or Rudolph? the Easter Bunny.
40) Math Or English? I'm a writer, so of course english. I hate math.

Other.....
41) What Are You Going To Do After You Finish This Survey? check on my build up of deviations. x.x
42) What Was The Last Meal You Ate? yesterday's lunch. *stomach grumbles*
43) High School Or College? High school, I don't want to leave everyone.
44) Are You Bored? Not really just tired.
45) How Many Of Your Buddies are on? How would I know? I'm not on.
46) Last Movie You Went And Saw? The Ring 2
47) Last Noise You Heard: people talking . . . and Salares . . . again . . . -.-;

Which One Of Your Friends:
48) Laughs The Weirdest? White Panda. And Kashi when you tickle him.
49) Will Grow Up And Be A Model? Allison.
50) Going To Have The Most Kids? I dunno. O.o
51) Have You Known The Longest? Jenny
52) Loudest? Desi, but all of them are pretty loud
53) Is The Quietest? Depends who's the most depressed any given day. x.x
54) Who Do You Have The Most Classes with? Kashi.
55) Who Will Fill This Out And Send It Back? Everyone who hasn't already.
56) Who Is The Funniest? everyone, but I'd say Panda.
57) Who Is The Moodiest? everyone. x.x
58) Who Do You Usually Go To About All Of Your Problems? Fluffy or Moki.

The Last Few Questions:
61) Last Time You Went Out Of State - Don't remember. O.o
63) Cool OR Dorkie - dorky IS cool.
64) Weirdest Thing About You? - everything . . . O.o my dual sides about all situations. T.T
65) What Book Are You Reading Now? - Malachi's Moon, DaVinci Code, a book on Wicca and a book on Taoism. O.o
66) What's On Your Mouse Pad? Some . . . lifehouse . . . thing.
67) Favorite Board Game - uhh . . . Rummy! (yes I know it's a card game. -.- )
68) Favorite Magazine - Animerica Extra ( it's gone . . .) and Shounen Jump.
69) Favorite Sound - music.
70) Worst Feeling In The World - Betrayal/failure
71) Best Feeling in The World - Feeling wanted/loved/special
72) What Is The First Thing You Think When You Wake In The Morning - Is it Saturday?
73) Can you feel another persons pain? All the time. T.T
74) Future Daughter's Name - Not having kids, but Katherene or something else pretty.
75) Future Sons name - A long time ago it would have been Josh but now that I know 13 Joshes it would be Damion.
76) Chocolate Or Vanilla? VANILLA
77) Favorite Alcoholic Drink? alcohol's nasty.
78) If You Could Have Any Job You Wanted Right
Now, What Would It Be? - a writer/poet
79) Which job would you want soon? anything but fast food. -.-
80) Do You Type With Your Fingers On The Right Keys? usually unless I'm typing with one hand.
81) What's Under Your Bed? surprisingly only a couple things.
82) What Is Your Favorite Number? 4

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Sealed in tight – Bizarre but right at home
Claustrophobic - Closing in and I'm
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I was a creature before I could stand
I will remember before I forget
Before I forget that!
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Word of the Day:* crow
n.
Any of several large glossy black birds of the genus Corvus, having a characteristic raucous call.

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I realize now how lazy I am when it comes to summing up an adventure like this. XD Ah well, I promised, so it must be done.

Of course the bus broke down on the way there (we went in ~xBlack-Pandax's dad's school bus, the same one we went on for the DDR tournament, that happened to be at the SAME HOTEL as the con. O.o
Anyway, we still got there in time for a couple hours of exploring on the first day, friday. I spent about $40 of my 100, and I got to see Scott McNeil, the voice of Duo Maxwell. I already knew that he did Kouga from Inu-Yasha, and I'd heard that he also did Piccolo from DBZ, but it amazed me when I heard some of his other roles! He's done everything from Wolverine in X-Ev, to Beast Wars, Monster Rancher and Hamtaro! He was listing off the roles he'd had in DBZ; Piccolo, Jeice, Buu, and a couple others. O.o That's right. Jeice, the short, red-skinned british baddie from (I think?) the Ginyu Force. And BUU XD When I heard that I thought he meant like the "grown up" Buu. But then, he said in a high-pitched voice, "BUU WANT CHOCOLATE!" And I nearly FELL OVER. OH MY GOD.

There were about 12 voice-actors there, but I only got to meet four of them. Obviously Scott, who I almost stalked (not to his discomfort XD ) through the con. But I also met Johnny Young Bosch, the voice of Vash (Trigun), Kiba (Wolf's Rain) and Kaneda from Akira. I met Joshua Seth, the voice of Hige, Cyborg 009, and Tetsuo. And I got to see his free hypnotist show! XD I was thisclose to meeting Kirby Morrow (Miroku, Trowa, Cyclops), but after standing in line for an hour and a half to see Scott and let him talk to my best friend Jenny, and sign a manga as part of her Christmas present, I couldn't take standing in line again to see Kirby. I thought, "oh, I'll get him tomorrow" (This was the second day.) Later that night, I literally raced up to my room to grab some mangas, and back down to the room where Kirby had been, to get David Kaye, voice of Sesshoumaru, Professor X, Akuma in Street Fighter, and Treize from GW, but of course, Kirby was gone. T.T

The third day, I didn't wake up until 10am, and as soon as I got dressed in my Duo outfit, I went down to find out about a costume contest going on at 4. I grabbed Kim, dressed as Hikaru, and we ran down to sign up. I spent the rest of the day either getting ready for the show, or being in the show, so I didn't get a chance to see Kirby. T.T ((I'M SORRY TABBY I STILL LOVE YOU I DID AT LEAST GET YOU A PLUSHIE!!!!)) *cough* ahem. Anyway.

Panda entered at the same time a guy named David (dressed as Vash) did, so they decided to enter together. David needed some work done on his costume, so we all sat down, all 6 or so of us, in the middle of the hallway and worked on it. He had soo many people taking pictures of him, just sitting there sewing. There was one time when he was sewing, and he accidentally pulled the needle out of the thread. He thought he'd done something wrong, and he gasped, and stared at it for a second with an "ohmygodwhatdidIdo" look on his face . . . and right then someone took a picture. It was priceless. XD

Finally, it was time for the show to start. We went out there one by one (except for Panda and Vash, they went out together), went through this modelling type of deal, you know, strutting the runway, and posing for the cameras. That was kind of fun. I was worried that everyone had forgotten about Gundam Wing and Duo Maxwell.
Stupid me. XD When I went out on stage, I got lots of cheers, and a few fangirls screaming for Duo. I'm still not sure if that's a good or bad thing.
So after everyone went, we listened to the categories for winners. When Best Anime Female came up (based on the gender of the person not the character) . . .
it went to someone else.

So did Best Cross-play.

And then they called out . . .

"Best Look-a-like: DUO MAXWELL"
YES XD XD XD XD

That's right! I got best look-a-like.

When I told Scott about it, he gave me a big hug. XD It was great.

Overall, the con was a lot of fun for me. It was my first con, my second time in Miami, so it's to be expected. According to the girls, Metro-con is a lot better, and that's in June, so maybe if I start saving now, I can go. XD

Lesson for the day, kiddies? Don't Touch the Mini-bar.


I want a hippopotamus for Christmas,
only a hippopotamus will do.
Don't want a doll, no rhinocerusseses,
I only like, hippopotamusseses.
and hippopotamusses like me too!

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