Word of the Day: weltschmerz
Pronunciation: 'velt-"shmerts
Etymology: German, from Welt world + Schmerz pain
1 : mental depression or apathy caused by comparison of the actual state of the world with an ideal state
2 : a mood of sentimental sadness
(meriam-webster.com)

Challenge: Say something nice to at least one cashier today. Remember, cashiers are people too, and they tend to get the brunt of most customers' frustrations.

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Metrocon Pictures being posted here: ~Group-Photos
Current status:
Metrocon: 72.5% (74/102)
AnimeSouth: 0% (0/112)




a lot has happened. Since I graduated, I have been to my 2nd-ever convention, started college, gotten a job, gotten a car, had the car break down no less than 4 times, quit college (temporarily), gone to my 3rd-ever convention, gotten a boyfriend, lost said boyfriend, and had several emotional breakdowns along the way . . . (I'm sure I've missed quite a bit in there)
So what a year! I'm going to turn 19 this April, and still sometimes I swear I'm not a day over 12. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, and that usually leads to either very good, or very bad, realizations.

Point A. Checking my messages here on dA has almost become a chore with how little time I have on here. I haven't posted a deviation in weeks, and even my journals are no longer garnering any responses. So I don't really know what to do with myself on here lately.

Point B. (this may sound what you would call "emo", but I'm not even going to touch on that right now. It's a stupid idea.) It seems like lately every time I find something that really makes me happy, Something immediately happens to take it away. A couple of weeks ago I realized that for the first time in quite a while, I was actually "happy", having had almost three good days in a row, and oddly enough, for no real reason. However, that night, the car broke down. And again the day after we got it fixed.

I don't even really know why I'm posting this, other than the fact that I've been very reminiscent lately and I haven't typed anything (or let anything out) in quite a while. I've felt very . . . well, I don't know if I would call it lonely, but even with my best friend living with me, I feel like there's not much place for me anymore. With the DDR machine gone, my last real "connection" with any of my friends, I've found myself wandering the mall for no reason, and I've gained even more weight. With school gone, Cobra out of the question (for me at least), and now the mall machine gone, there's really no reason for me to leave my house except for work.

Speaking of houses, we're moving again, but this time actually into town; Lynn Haven to be exact. We're not 5 minutes from 77 & 23rd street (i.e. the mall, OfficeMax, etc.). Jenny's looking for another job, having walked out (on friendly terms at least) from OfficeMax. As soon as she gets settled in, I'll do the same, only I plan on actually giving them a two weeks notice.

I just completely lost my train of thought. XD And I realize that this is starting to get long rambling and a bit angsty, which no one wants to read, so I'll just quit.

**********RANDOM UPDATE**********
On the GW group for AnimeSouth, Jenny has decided to be Relena, we might have found a Mariemaia, but I would really like to have at least one of the following:
Zechs Merquis
Lady Une
Sally Po and Noin

So if you think you can effectively pull one of them off and are going to AnimeSouth 2006, Let me know!
********END RANDOM UPDATE********




You won’t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?








My other accounts:
- stock (rarely used) . - convention photos (currently metrocon 05) . - Productions co.

Groups:
"The Group" . deviantFlorida . The Gundam Wing Guild (non-yaoi!)

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Some useful guides/editorials to look at:
Poetry:
.Tips.for.the.Novice.
.Why.the.DeviantART.Writing.Community.SUCKS.
Drawing/Colouring:
.Colored.Pencil.1...Skin.|.Colored.Pencil.2...the.shirt.
Not.an.Anime.Girl.
Other:
.Creative.Photography.for.beginners.